DILEMMA

LATELY..

ak sgt2 laa berkira..

mari kita mengira..1,2,3,4....

sape pndai mengira sila agkt tgn mcm saye...

ok2..bck to main topic..

asl ak berkira sgt2 nie ea???

ak nk removekn sft nie..tp..

semakin nk remove,semakin kuat sft2 melekat..

so camne??

then,when i try it...one by one da memories i had were flashback..

especially..da bad ones laa kan...

dat y i cannot terminate dis behavior..

when i thought bck...

always da other part of me (evil part) whispers very very very close to my ears..

"time ko sakit dulu sape je yg tlg...

tme ko prlukn bantuan bkn ke ko mengagahkn diri gerak sorg2 evn ko sakit...snggp lnggr arhn...as a result IT becomes worst"...

so when dis negative thinking come..wut shall i do??

shall i be blamed for having this bad behavior??*thinking*

that y there is quote saying

"u know ur frenz when ur sick only"

DREAM???can it b REALITY???*wondering*..HOPEFULLY :)

THANK YOU ALLAH

HANDS...

so precious....

THANKS TO ALLAH FOR THE HANDS GIVEN TO US...

my hands really soft..

ok..tpu je..xmungkin tgn ak selembut pic itu..

tgn org yg menyapu..bsh pggn..mengemop..memasak..melipat kain..

probability tgn yg lawa cam figure 2 0.0000000000001% laa kan...

kat sini ak nk cite psl klbhn&keistimewaan tgn ak..kkk

belawok..belawok..belawok..

kita bako..bako..bako..hahaha

actually dsuatu ptg jumaat yg sunyi lg hening...

kdgrn azan maghrib berkumandang..

dgn cepatnya ak bgn..trus ke toilet..mengambil wudhu'

apabila ak cuba membasuh telinga ak...

OH MY GODDD!!!!

i can't raise up my right arms properly...wut wrong???

i also don know..

so i think it's a normal thing...wut dey said in malay "kebas"???

heheh..bajet gilo speaking..

basically..klu kebas jap je kan..around 2-3 min..

but in my cases,it very weird....

mlm 2 dah laa ak on duty tok jaga kedai..

seyesly ak xmampu bt pe2..

sblh lengan kanan ak is like paralysed..(fortunately..it's not)

ak xmampu nk bwk motor..even menulis..nk angkt brg lagi laa kan...

nk angkt gelas kosong without anything inside pon ak xmampu..

it seem dat my right hands very tired..really tired..

maybe klu dah bley ckp dah lama dia ckp

"wahai tuanku zahira yg comel lg baik hati..gunakan lah juga tg kirimu itu...relax je ak tgk..gua capek...gua pon nak take 5 gak"

2 dioo..bkn take5...take 3 days kot nk recover blk...

bgn pg sabtu dgn harapan my hands will b recovered to normal...

waaaaaaaa......still same..i cannot move...

tgh hri 2 gak ak g klinik...POLIKLINIK UNIVERSITI kat tmn u nie..

2je satu2nya klinik yg bkak..

terkebetulan ak ad diskusipc ptg 2..so ak sengaja-mengajakan diri g klinik d tghhari yg aman damai itu..heheheh..

belawok je ea..ak seorg yg NAIVE, PUNCTUAL, RESPONSIBLE..kkkk

g klinik nk bgtaw dr pon xtaw..ak juz ckp tgn ak kebas..xley nk dgrkkn..

stndrd sbgai doc..dia sentuh2..cba bengkok2 kn..compare kan ngn tgn kiri ak..so at last dia ckp

"tgn u ok je..xde mslh pe2...juz mayb pressure kuat sgt..n mayb darah mengalir xlancar kat saraf tgn u"

glurrrppp..dgrnya saraf..trus dupdapdupdap..saraf weyh...

rosak saraf ak means keistimewaan yg danugerah ALLAH tok ak menulis makan etc dah ........

so beria2 ak tnya..confem ke doc tgn saya xde pe2..doc 2 dgn confidentnya kate..

"it's will better 3 or 4 days..i'll give u vitamin for speedkan blood ke saraf "..

pertemuan kitaorg hnya berlangsung 2-3 min saje..

ak nk pakai helemt pon xmampu...

membe ak yg tlg pakaikan..bkak purse pon xmampu..kna bkak ngn tgn kiri..

so for 2-3 days i fully use my left hand..n my right hand i give her 4 days MC..kkk

mlm sabtu tergrk hati ak tok bkak buku..isnin test separation II kot...

sx lg...

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......sobsobsobsobsoooooobbbbbbbbbbbb.........

asl ak xley menulis nie.....

in case..in caselaakan..ak xley gna tgn kanan ak..so ak da prepare awl2..ak cuba praktikkan mengguna tgn kiri..da result obtained as shown in figure 1.

figure 1: left hand

figure 2:right hand

camne nk jwb exam...tulisan cam budak tadika..terketar2 nk tulis..xmampu nk angkt pensel even 200 g...

figure 3 illustrates comparison new writting with previous writting

figure 3:comparison new writting with previous writting

smbl tulis sambil teresak2..

bsrnya dugaan mu YA ALLAH...

kuatkan semangat ye ZAHIRA..tp....

trus call ngadu kat mom ak kat kelantan...

control suara skit..bg nmpk macho..heheheh

so mom ak call bro ak kat temenggung ibrahim2..srh dtg tgk kondisi ak camne...

2dioo..dtg bwk minyak + ais...then abg ak urut2 ak sambil dok pot petpotpet kat ak...

ak dgr patuhnya..dgr je nasihat2 + arhn2 dr bro ak 2..

mlm 2 postpone study..continue tdo...

study pon xley nk bt pe2..tgn xberdaya evn pgng pnsl..hohoho

pg ahad yg sejuk..membekukan tgn ak..kkk..

kul 6.30 am lg mom ak call tnya kondisi tgn ak..

it getting bttr..2jelaa yg mampu ak katekan..

tp ak xtpu ye..

smlm 2 ak try luruskan tgn kanan ak..tp xberdaya..xsampai 1 saat trus tershaking2..n fall down..

actually tgn ak xckp gagah utk berdiri sorg2..need accompany..

cecece..tuan ko nie dok single da lama xde pe2 prob pon...

ngada2 btol....hahahahha

jwb test sep smlm...

ak gagahkan n kuatkan diri menjwb soalan..

menitik gak laa my little tears...hohohoho..

penat..lenguh...only GOD knew my feeling..

but i am so relieved rite now my right hand is reovered..even it is not fully recovered..but at least it enough as long as i can write....

thanks GOD..

u make me realize my mistakes..

sesungguhnya ENGKAU lah YANG MAHA KUASA..ENGKAU juga MAHA PENYAYANG

sesungguhnya bilamasa ENGKAU qaala (kata) "kun fayakun"..

maka terjadilah sesuatu mengikut qada' dan qadar Mu..

~AMIN~

future KAK LIMAH ke ak nie???

cam myt hidup je skunk..

my body searching for entertainment

but my brain tell me not to do so..

STUDY..

so how come??

cam PROF DR RUZAINEE,lec PM ak kate"saya tgk u all nie cam mayat hidup je..xde jiwa"

ok..hidup ak da xtrurus skunk..very hectic..very bz..

not hve much time to enjoy..

not hve much time to go mall..

not have much time to study..

NOT HAVE MUCH TIME TO 'BALIK KAMPUNG'..

hohoho

schedule for last week~~~dis week~~

18/3-21/3 --->PC-case study 3

4 days 3 n8 ak b'kg kat bilik cyber 5 KTDI...with other groups as well...

cam nk gilo je!!!

strt kul 2pm habis kul 6.30 am..bkn sehari dua..tp 3 hari berurut2..

camne ak nk g enjoy kan...

blk je trus terlentang ats katil..bngn2 je kul 1pm..

lps bngun je..trus mandi solat siap2 g meeting kul2...

mkn???t'pksa curi msa meeting tok mkn...

advantage: ak taw camne nk gna software ASPEN HYSYS, MATHLAB(simulink),microsoft word(yg nie plg ak ska..coz ak dscvr bnyk bnda bru kat micrsf nie..teammates ak yg ajr..sthnya camne nk grouping, bt citation tok ref, n so on)~~~~~

disadvntge:asl weekend je trus ak bz till mnday..ye r..monday tme tok submit report..

21/3-25/3

gara2 PC..proposal tok PSM (projek srjna muda) xsiap..bukan xsiap tp lngsng xbt..hohoho

"RHEOLOGICAL BEHAVIOR OF NANOFLUIDS CONTAINING TITANIA NANOPARTICLES IN DEIONIZED WATER"

2 laa tjk psm ak...pnjg kan...

jenuh laa ak dok baca jural..klu stkt 1,2 jurnal xpe lg..

ni berplh2..juling mata ak..hohoho

tp naseb baek laa ak dah bt summary tok stp jurnal2...

each wednesday ak kna present summary 2 kat supervisor ak..

so xde laa ak blurr sgt psl tjk 2..juz ak still confuse psl term RHEOLOGICAL..confuse2!!!

nk tls lit review bkn semudah yg dsngka..

besanya klu lab report ak copy n paste je...senang kan..

tp klu PSM nie ak kna olah ayt sndri..pas2 citationnya tulis (zahira zainun,2011)..hahahah

supposedly hri khamis ptg2 ad test project management(ak lngsg xtaw pe benda sbjk nie)..

jumaat plak test seperation II..

tp luckily, mggu lps bermulanya PESTA KONVO..

so any test or evnt cannot b held during that time..

lega weyh..

so mlm jumaat2 ak bersengkang mata tok bt proposal PSM..

kul 8am hri jumaat bru siap..tp xcomplete lg..so ak tdo jap..konon2 jap laa kan...

dz...dz....dz...

bngun2 je dah kul 9.40am..2pon team members lab rexn htr msg tnya ak dtg x lab??

2 diooo.....

trus ak g gsk gg..cuci muka..pas2 g lab...

smpai2 je naseb baek laa lec ak xnmpk ak bru dtg..hehehhe

lps lab je+during lab ak dok edit2 PSM 2

unluckily dkt kul 4.45pm siap..

supervsor ak dah blk tme 2...huhuhuh

tp still ak submit..

28/3--->test PC +cse study 4(beginning of CRAZY world)

29/3--->prsnt PORTFOLIO english pnya sbjct

31/3--->ptg test PM..mlm test economy engineering..yg nie ak xsure wktunya..tp yg ak sure 1 day 2 test..aigooo...!!!

4/3---->separation test

ok jad ak 2 xtermsk lg keje2 yg perlu dsubmit,

rflction jurnal,

pas2 projek2 yg terbengkalai (due b4 final... so need to be neglected)..hahahha...

mode: happy...weekend nie sx lg ak terperap kat UTM..bertungkus lumus menyiapkan case study 4 yg bkl dupload lps test...

senior kate CS4 kedasyatan( betol x ak eja..i mean sumting like horrible) je dthp 10 r..

semua kna pk sndri...lngsg no infomation..

need to solve based on wut we know..

I NEED OXYGEN..NOT OXYGEN COMING FROM UTM..BUT OXYGEN OUTSIDE UTM...

mY hUmAn SiDe

in a GUD mOOd :)

today i did sumthing gud as a human..

i donate my precious blood..

to help those who really need..

with my precious blood flow happily (like its owner) through inside his/her vein ..

i hope he/she gonna b OK!!!

sayonara/anyeoon/gudpyeee my B blood..

i will never miss u..hahahhaha

1,2,3,4,5...

dah bnyk x rpanya ak derma darah

1st time independence day kat jj taman universiti skudai,johor...

a2lly dah lama ak nk bt kerja amal nie..since high skul..

tp dsbbkn blom ckp umur+bnyk obstacles..

so hsrt murni ak tertangguh bnyk x..

back in matrix...ad je prob occured tme ak nk b baek..

so postponed lg..

dah msk u..ak nekad...

by hook by crook mst kna derma darah gak..

cam gian je kan..hahahhaha

mom ak dah warned awl2...juz derma once per yr..

tp.....

msk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri je..hehehhe

blood concentration ak td 12.9mg/L > 12.5 mg/L

wut made my eyeballs pop out bile timbang berat ak..

turun weyhhhhh...3 kg trn...

fuhhh..naseb baek lps syrt nk derma...

nurse 2 siap ckp lg kat doc..

..."doc klu brt xckp bt2 ckp laa...xde org nie"....

tme ak derma2 xde org..xmndpt smbtn sgt..

blood donation nie anjuran society ak..

korg taw kan alat nk measure tekanan darah manusia..

<---- blood pressure level monitor

ak memalukan diri td..aigooo

peristiwa 2 terjd dek krna kegembiraan ak nk menderma darah

cecitacecitacecita (cam hantu kak limah2)

meh ak habaq mai

ak tme doc nk measure blood pressure2 ak sising la lngn bju

yelaaa from my observation dlm cite2 diorg sellau bt cam2..

so ak apply laa blk bnda yg ak tgk..hehehhe

pas2 yg memalukan ak...

doc 2 slowly menurunkan lengan baju yg ak sising td tme dia mskkn benda bergulung2 kat lengan ak

<----- nielaa bnda bergulung2..xtaw ak nk pggl pe..hohoho

hohoho..ak rase really really malu...

so pe ak bt..???

ak pusing muka ak 90 drjh..xsggp nk tgk mka doc2..

dahlaa doc2 bley thn hensem..hehehhehe

cam dlm cite..tba2 ad laa SPIDERWOMAN/SUPERWOMAN dtg..hahahha

tok mengcoverkn diri ak pura2 laa ckp ngn membe ak2...

lngsg ak xtgk pe doc2 bt..

mane laa ak taw xyah sising lngn bju still dpt measure blood pressure..

kat rumah ak selalu je gna bnda nie..

xde laa ALWAYS..

tme mom ak gna OMRON nie ak pon menyibuk2kn diri gna gak..hehehhe

tp kat rmh ak xpakai bju yg long sleeve pnya..

so maybe dat da reason y i think i shall "sising"lngn bju2... :)

PICS SEKADAR HIASAN

perlu ke??amt2 perlu..as a PROOF...lol

dis weeknd ad dinner..

theme for dis dinner "wedding"

so wut shall i wear??

so perlu ak pakai bju cam pengantin??

ak da beli pon...heheh..

tp...

bye 4 now!!!

*pas dinner i'm certainly upload my pic*

ak,PC n .....

OPENING

andai dipisah ak n PC

getaran jiwa..aaaaa~~~~

at home~~~~~*sigh*

supposedly ak hepi time kat rmh..

coz evry time ak blk ak xkn n xkn n xkn cntct ngn sape2 yg ade relate ngn UTM..

automatically jiwa pon tng..PEACE!!!

but it juz hope..hohoho

kali ni blk rumah bwk sx keje2..guess wut sbjct???cam taw je kan..of coz laa process control..

bkn 2 je..ak bwk sx lab report separation yg perlu dsubmit ari isnin..coz ak blk hri isnin..

so by hook or by crook terpksa laa bertungkus lumus evn ak kat rmh...

korg mst terkjt kan..ak blk ari jumaat smpai sbtu pg..pas2 ahd mlm blk smla utm..smpai pgi isnin...

well dat my life as a student..heheheh

almost nk siap PC..tp still xley siap mlm nie..i need rest..aftr a long journey ystrday night...

blk rmh trus tdo..

bngn2 je terasa mata ak bengkak semacam je..tgk kat cermin..OMO!!!!

mata ak merah..cam biji saga..

no wonder laa since smlm lg mata ak nie dok produce taik mata non stop..

klu g clnc agk doc bg cuti x ea??

bley ak extend my holiday...heheheh..beZZZZ!!!

bhya kot pnykt nie..bley berjngkt2...so ak xslmt klu ak blk utm...alsn yg bernas tok stay lama2 kat psr mas..hehehehhehe

owh btw td ak terjth motor...pncanya..of cozlaa bkn sebab MATA ak yg merah nie..

tp dsbbkn kaki ak xsmpai nk pjk bumi..pendek ke kaki ak nie??*thinking*

~i luv da way i am..lalallal~

i LOVE to eaT!!!

susulan blog miminyuyu yg dok "memuji" ak..terima kasih daun keladi dok mention nem ak bnyk kali..ak terasa amat bngga sx..nxt time ltk r kat name ak link blog ak..6t ramai skit follower ak..kkk

class ended at 6pm today..waaaa~~~very tired..nie gara2 HARVARD CASE STUDY..harvard kot..lTToooPPP g2!!!hahahahhaha

diz week i'm quite bz...ahd lps xsmpt nk tdo gara2 bt process control..hri sbtu bt PC gak kul 3++am bru tdo..luckily jumaat 2 utm berada dlm zaman jahiliah@kegelapan..kkk..evn xde API pon kitaorg still meeting tok PC pnya report..candle light meeting laa...ROMANTIC weyh...lol..btw bkn group ak je..tp stu coursemate ak@bdk2 3-skk b'kg 3 hri 4 mlm juz 4 pC...our life is about PC dis moment...hoHoHO..juz ignore psl PC..let's move on to othr topic..

lps hbs meeting PC (aigoo pc lg..jodoh ak ngn MR PC ke??) dkt kul 4am ak mimin n azah plan tok mkn mc D..ye laa prot ak dah nangis2 klprn.. "it's ok hun,mom will treat u with bigMAC..b patiENT"~~hehhehe

dgn selekehnya pakaian ak..trcksuit+lng sleeves t-shirt+tdg x b'iron ak nekad kuar demi MCD..

owh btw lec PC ak....PC lg..stress!!!hahahah...ac2lly bkn process control tp polution control ye...

dr ariffin kate lbey krg camnie la "pe yg awk nk bngga sgt mkn MCD 2..tme sya kat overc dulu org malu nk mkn MCD dpn org ramai..MCD juz for lower clss people je".. so lower ckss ke ak nie?*sigh*

b4 kuar 2 jntg ak dah dupdapdupdap tgk p.cik guard b'misai kat gate UTM...naseb baek laa ak g ngn pompuan je..so p.cik2 juz SMILE..n pe lg trus VROOOOMMMMMMMMMM!!!!

smpai MCD tgk group sunbae tgk berdiskusi..MANTAP..kat MCD kot...MCD mlm 2 kerugian beratus2 rggt gara2 bdk2 yg diskusi sana dok refill brpa puluh kali air pepsinya yg BEZZ gla...

tp nk bt camne..sapa srh company 2 bt cam2...

kul 4am..rsa mengantk dah hlg aftr dok borak2...bnyk r topik2 menarik kitaorg dok diskus..evn bkn prob kitaorg pon still ak azah n mimin dok berdebat..kwn yg baik hruslah ska menjaga tepi kain org kan... :)..nk taw??SHHHHHH scrt r..kekekke

then menu MCD tme2 change 2 brkfst..ad laa refill tok air coffee n tea..so ak mengmbl ksmptn yg baek nie tok try minuman yg berkhasiat dpgi hari..creamer n gula dambl tok dbt exprmnt..

so cam jakun ak try cmprkn coffe+creamer..yukkkkSSS!!!rase dahsyat gla..so r8 aftr mix ngn gula rase dia dah jd YUMMY...thn try plak tea+creamer+gula n Tea+gula...ok..dah hbs mengtry minuman kat MCD n bak kata remy "malaikat subuh dah dtg" kitaorg pon grk balik bilik...so refresh aftr minum COFFEE n TEA :)

p/s : ak psn big mac yg xde pickel (timun jeruk)..tp mayb dsbbkn tukang ambik ordr 2 mayb ngntok so dia still bg big mac yg ad pickle..so wut my right as a customer???shall they give free 2 me as their service not fully satisfy me??how we as customer can determine the price offer is right??*thinking*..cececce..lps HCS dah ad experience nk ckp psl price2 n service nie..kkk