my words to TAYLOR LAUTNER

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever

We small talk, work, and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
It still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you
Saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom mean nothing but missing you
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When you birthday passed
And I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing
From the passenger side
And I realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love
And all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride


Standing in front of you
Saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom mean nothing but missing you
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms
That September night

The first time you ever saw me cry
Baby this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you
Saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom mean nothing but missing you
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

All the time...

bilik kemas hati suka ria

tgh syok ak beristirehat ats katil..tba2 t'dgr plak miranda cosgrove nyanyi..owh my hp rpa2nya..hehehhe..kat skrin tertulis "DADDY"

daddy:hello ira (nem pggln mnja ak kat rmh..hahahha)

me:yup

dad ak trus drct tnya

daddy:mi(my mommy) kate ira nk duit..nk x??

me:a'aa bley gak...hehehhe

ak jwb tnpa b'fkr even 1 saat pon..trus je kate nak...

dad: nk berapa??100 ckp x??

me: xckp..$$$ bley x?? (drhsiakan nilainya ats sebab2 tertentu..)

dad:ok..nk bank in bnk islam @cimb??

me:cimb laaa

dad:duit dah habis ke?:

me:x... ad lg..tp duit simpan laaa

camne nk ad duit..1/2 scholarship ak dpt ak simpan..dat y tme last2 nie kekeringan duit..

dad:duit yg ad ckp utk berapa hari?

me:seminggu kot

dad:ok 6t abah bank in kan

me:ok (smbil tersnyum smpai telinga)hehehhe

naseb baek mom ak igt..hehehhe

ak cll mom ak awl bln lagi kot nk srh mskkan duit..

mom ak tnya nk bila??dsbbkan mom ak bru je bg ak duit tme ak balik ari2 so ak jwb r ad..wlaupun dah kering poket ak..hahhahah

ak kate laa...6t msk gaji bank in kan duit utk i ye...

gaji mom&dad ak xslp 25 okt..ak dah bgtaw mom ak awl2 6t 25 okt ak call balik in case mom ak t'lpa...

tp ak xcall pon...saje nk menguji minda mak ak..hehehhehe

tup2...alahmdullillah mom ak still igt...~EPI~

esk nk g bank laa..nk tgk dah msk blom..heheh

SARANGEYO :)

ALHAMDULLILLAH....

very fresh rite now...

dkt 1/2 day ak,azah dok bilik phew bertungkus lumus siapkan assgnmnt rction..

as a result...YEAY!!!MISSION ACCOMPLISH!!!!

strt pukul 2.30++pm td till kul 9.30 pm...non-stop weyh...nontalking as well..ckit2 je r..heheheh

muka berminyak badan plak melekit..perot plak dok menyanyi2 lagu viva la vida..hahahha

tp..FOKUS..FOKUS..by hook or by crook assgnmt mst disiapkan..

at last tepat kul 9.30 (ak agk je r...hehheh..lpa nk tgk jam) kerja semua dah beres...

ALHAMDULLILLAH...

so pe lagi...kitaorg pon strt mencari2 mknan r...

mkn ala kadar je..jemput2 n nasi lauk aym yg phew msk time lunch...

wlupun ckit..tp ckp r mengelakkan ak dr strving...

owh btw assgnmnt reaction 2 supposedly atr 4 nov..tp dsbbkan ad bnyk lg keja yg perlu dsiapkan so dat y kitaorg bt cepat2..hehehheheh...

ok r..flshbck utk hari nie..pengajaran utk ak:

nxt time b independent ye ZAHIRA...

independent camnie kot..hahahha

ok r...anyeoooonnnnnn....

at LAST

siap gak assignment seperation...ak strt bt kul 2pm n siap around 10 pm...lama kan??ye laa dok borak2 ngn phew,makan..camne nk siap kan...ak main bt je..xsure btol x..hrp2 btol..heheheh

dis week quite bz..ak xde mase nk memanjakan muka ak ni ngn alat2 kosmetik..hehhehe

juz mask je laaa..biasanya ak pakai 2x seminggu...

tp dsbbkan minggu nie bz+ak tdo awl so mka ak mggu nie nmpk kusam je...hahahhaha

lgpon mggu nie me with my frenz ambik degree++ ngn dr hamidah...bezzzzzzzzzz gla!!!!!!!

so korg join laaa ea...xmnysl byr RM70.00...

oklaa..mls ak nak taip pnjg2..penat buat assignment xhbs lg n btw ak tgh pakai mask skunk...

so xley senyum,masam or show any emotions as 6t cepat berkedut!!

anyeooonnnnnnnnnnnnn~~~~~~~~

hmmmmmm

aigooo...asal ak rase down ri nie..

KMPP...B5.3.7

penat..penat..penat...

ak bru je siap mengemop lantai bilik ak nie..gara2 air cincau tumpah habis stu bilik kna dimop...aigoooooo....

xpe2 nie utk kebaikan ak gak..bilik ak dah bersih skunk..hehhehe..dah dkt sebulan kot xdimop..malas..hehehhehe

<----mixing of lux+softlan

keadaan air slps dmop----->

cam sama je color air 2 kan..hahhahah

dulu time ak kat mtrx bilik ak sentiasa

dmop..tiap2 mggu ak mop..ak??hahahha..

bkn ak tp rumate ak..org klntn cam ak...namenya k.ila..skunk ambik medic kat UMS

k.ila-------------------------------------------------------->

baik weyh dia..org yg plg baik yg prnh ak jumpa setakat nie...bdk2 hyt xkira r laki or pompuan knl dia..ramai gila laki ska kat dia..ak tumpang tgk je r..hahhaha..tp k.ila jns xmelayan....dia anggp diorg 2 adik2

je...dia tua sthn pd ak..

bck to our topic..topic pe ea??psl mop2 2 laaa...k.ila nie selalu bngun kul 5am cam2 r..wlaupun weekend..pas2 lps study, around kul 8am dia akn kemas bilik...ak???terlentang ats katil r..hahahha..tme msk dulu selalu gak ak bngun pagi tlg k.ila mop..bkn stkt mop kitaorg cuci kipas,tingkap..tiap2 mggu weyh...rajin kan??hahah..

tp kerajinan ak xberkekalan lama..mmpu berthn 2,3 bln je..bngun2 je tgk2 bilik dah bersi..so yg mmpu ak kata

ak : "k.ila dah mop lantai ke??"..wlaupun ak taw dah dmop tp saje tnya..hehehhe..at least ak concern gak kan???

k.ila:"yup dah"

ak:"laa asl xkejutkan??sian k.ila"

k.ila:"xpe2..k.ila tgk ya tdo lena mls nk kejutkan"

cam2laaa dialog ak n k.ila stp x weekend..kdg2 rase berslh gak..tp nk bt camne..terlbey tdo..rumate ak yg lain anis laa yg biasanya tlg k.ila coz dia bngun awl cam k.ila..wong plak cam ak..kul 10am bru bngn..hahah..

biasnya petang2 or weekend k.ila selalu ajk ak g jog...ak g gak..t

p seigt ak bley 2,3 kali je ak prnh jog sepnjg ak dok kat KMPP..xde energy weyh..hahahha

nielaa rumate2 ak..penghuni B5.3.7....wong,ak,k.ila,anis

pas2 sekali je ak prnh pinjam bskl ronda2 KMPP..2pon k.ila yg ajk ak n bdk2 prktkm dia...so dpt laa ak mengenali membe2 dia..

cite psl kngn ak n k.ila bnyk sgt...xhbs ak cite..

ad sx 2 ak nk mkn mggi ruski yg perisa tom yam..k.ila kate pedas sgt2..so kitaorg rela g trun beli mggi2 kat blok A.5..sebelah blok ak je..

ak yg nk mkn maggi..tp k.ila yg tlg btkan utk ak dan dia gak..malaskan ak??hahaha..nk kata water heater 2 jauh dr blk ak xmngkn..blk kitaorg strtgk..dkt ngn tandas,msin bsh,tgga,cermin bsr utk makeup..saje2 nk mnja2 ngn k.ila..hahahahahha..dahlaa dia rendam mggi2 2x coz nk buang lapisan berminyak...semua dia bt..ak juz tggu ats katil n mkn..hahhaha

pk2 blk ak nie jht kot..ska mengmbl kesemptn ats kebaikan org laen..heheh

antra jasa2 baik k.ila pd ak:

-tlg kejutkan ak tiap2 pg utk smbhyg subuh..wlaupun ak dah kunci alarm clock still ak xley bngun

-kejutkan ak utk mndi pg..tp bkn selalu r...wktu ak mndi biasanya kul 7.30 am..so lps sembhyg ak smbung tdo...org sibuk2 nk g kls ak plak sibuk2 take a shower..hehhehe

-time bulan pose plak dia kejutkan ak utk shr..bngn je dah ad mknan utk shr..roti je laaa..kdg2 mlm2 kitaorg beli nasi..ps2 tme shr mkn

-tmnkan ak g jln2 beli brg..kitaorg selalunya g kat central square, summit kat bkt mertjm...yg 1 lg ak lpa nem tmpt 2..

-n bnyk lg r...

ok laa ak rase dat all 4 today..lpa plak nk wish

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR& BATIN

kEinSaFaN

18 RAMADHAN 1421H...

pejam celik pejam celik dah 18 hari kite berpuasa..mengikut KAMUS DEWAN pge 2060 puasa b'mksd menahan lapar dan dahaga serta mengawal diri drpd melakukan perkara-perkara yg blh membatalkan puasa..

as a Muslim kita WAJIB utk berpuasa..sebagai sabda Rasullullh S.A.W :

Maksudnya: “Sesiapa berbuka satu hari pada bulan Ramadhan tanpa ada rukhshah (keringanan) dan tidak juga kerana sakit, dia tidak akan dapat melunaskan (mengganti) puasa yang ditinggalkannya itu, sekalipun dia berpuasa seumur hidup.”

(Hadis riwayat Tirmidzi, Abu Daud, Nasa’i, Ibnu Majah dan Ibnu Khuzaimah)

actually,bnyk kelebihan bg mereka2 yg berpuasa..yg ak list nie based on pe yg ak igt time ak belajar kat secondary skul long time ago:

*nak merehatkan organ2 dalaman..ye laa organ2 dlman nie function nya lbey krg cam mesin laa..xkan nk beroperate 365/366 day,24 hr,7 days non-stop kan???6t 'jem' laaa sistem bdn..btol ke pe yg ak ckp2??2 teori ak je..hehehhehe...

*dpt mepertingkatkan amal ibadah

*merapatkan silaturahim..eg:makan 4/5 org dlm stu talam or ramai2 g bazar ramadhan cuci mata ngn makanan...

*yang plg penting@main point@important@pe2 yg same meaning..dlm bulan ramadhan ad 1 hari yg paling paling paling special..dat is malam LAILATUL QADAR..yg petikan kat bwh nie ak ambik dr internet:

Dalam al-Quran, Allah SWT berfirman yang bermaksud: "Sesungguhnya Kami telah menurunkan (Al-Quran) ini pada Malam Lailatul-Qadar, Dan apa jalannya engkau dapat mengetahui apa dia kebesaran Malam Lailatul-Qadar itu? Malam Lailatul-Qadar lebih baik daripada seribu bulan. Pada Malam itu, turun malaikat dan Jibril dengan izin Tuhan mereka, kerana membawa segala perkara (yang ditakdirkan berlakunya pada tahun yang berikut); Sejahteralah Malam (yang berkat) itu hingga terbit fajar!" (Quran, Al-Qadr 97: 1-5)

btw klu nak taw lbey lanjut psl lailatul qadar niekorg bley mintak tlg MR.GOOGLE,MRS FIREFOX,MISS IE etc

for smoker kat luar saa,tme pose nie laa tme yg bley mendidik korng utk mengurangkan dr m'jd smoker tegar..ak rase bla dah gian susah bg seseorg nk tgglkn sesuatu benda2 secara mendadak.xpe slow2 dulu..bak kata pepatah melayu cikit2 lama2 jd bukit..~

<----------- GUD LUCK TO SMOKER!!!!

mst bg bdk2 tba je pose dlm kotak minda masingg2 dah ad $$$..mate diorg pon dah color hijau,merah,biru..hahhaha..pose pon xhbs lagi dah pk duit raye..hohoho..i know laa...coz i dulu po prh jd kanak2 riang!!hehehehhe

MONEY...MONEY...MONEY ----->

<----kuar je beliau kat tv menandakan keesokan adlh HARI RAYA n POSE

berckp psl pose nie..td ak ad iftar bersama anak2 yatim kat kolej ak nie...bnyk gla makanan..sate,nasi beriani,mee@kueyteow@mee hoon sup, jus tembikai n roti jala..so smlm full perot ak nie..dah laa mknan 2 'PASHATA'..tp bkn2 yg ak nk ckp kat sini...actuallly ak sdey tgok budak2 2...kecik2 dah xde mak ayah..sia diorg...tp diorg still nmpk ceria...dah nama budak...xreti lagi nk phm benda2 semua nie...ak doakan bile bsr 6t diorg akn jd manusia yg berguna pd agama,masyarakat,bangsa n egara..diorg nielaa bakal mnjd tunjang negara..

<---pic nie sekadar hiasan

mengalir gak air mata ak time tgk diorg dpt duit raye..mane xnya lagu yg berkumandang sungguh syahdu...huhuhu!!

so kite patut menghargai MOM N DAD kite while diorg still ALIVE..

skunk nie kat paper2 bnyk terpmpang kesa2 psl ank2 'buang' their parents...kejam gile ak rase...ANAK DERHAKA laa bg sape2 yg mengignorekan mak ayah diorg..

<----mat saleh mane laa ak ambik nie

nielaa contoh ketidaktanggungjawaban muda-mudi skunk..xmenghargai pe yg kite ad..pas2 bila dah xde 6t bru laa timbul rase sesal..nie dpt diibartkan nasi sudah menjadi bubur..sesal dahulu pendapatan sesal kemudia xde gunaa lagi...

susah sgt ke kita nak jga mak ayah kite tme diorg tua??diorg mampu jaga kita smpai kite jd manusia yg berguna...xbley ke kita nk berkorba ckit???aigooo..

RENUNG2 kan laa ye