jom main masak-masak

nak kata ak ni suka masak...mmm..bolehlaaa...hahahha
effct tgk rncgn masak kot...tp mmg dr dlu ak suka masak..heheh
ak igt lg zaman bdk2 dulu selalu main masak2 dgn abg2 ak...
pasir djdkn nasi...daun2 djdkn lauk n syur2...
thn kitaorg siap guna tin2 kosong utk masak daun+air guna batang2 kayu...
srtkhabar djdkn pembungkus nasi...customernya tentulaa adik beradik+jiran2  kitaorg gak....heheheh

skunk i klu ak kat rumah mesti ak kat dapur..
jd assistant my mom..
tp juz tukang potong bawang, tukang kacau, n tukang merasa sekali...hahahha
tp perlu ak akui kemahiran ak memasak x sama level dgn dua org abg ak..
dsbbkn diorg prnh keja d kedai makan so masakkan diorg blh laa dktkn sedap....

utk mencapai level sedemikian, so skunk lpas balik keja selalunya ak masak..evn sorg makan pon..
xberbaloi??mmmm....
malas tu mmg malas tp da main reason y i have to becoz:

(1) borink gla asyik makan kat luar...lbh 5 thn ak mkn kat luar strt dr zaman matrik smpai laa zmn kat uni...xkn zaman keja pon ak nk mkn kat luar..
(2) xde menu menarik utk dmkn sbb asyik2 menu sama je ak ordr...dah nama ordr menu sama mmg laa xmenarik ye dok..ce try ordr menu lain2...
(3) menajamkn skill memasak...tp bla di gelanggang dapur ak rasa mmg ak dah ad skill je juz krg dprktkkn je..*bngga disitu*...muahahhahahahha
n etc....
(4) selamat utk dimakan..cettt mcm laa selama ni ak prnh sakit mkn kat luar..ad tu ad...tp jarang2 sekali...hehehe

ak teringin gak nk bt mcm cake sbb tgk yg diorg post gmbr mcm bez je..
tp...dsbbkn ketidaklengkapan barang di rumah sewa so yg tu beli je laaa...
skunk ni google je nk msk pe..semua resepi ad..juz sedap@x sedap je...hahahahha
klu perut blh terima mksdnya sedap laaa kan...hahahhaha...

ak still mkn kat luar tp jarang2 skunk...
sekali sekala perut mstlaa dmnjakan dgn makan2an yg sedap2..kkk

angin..ooo...angin...

makan..makan...makan....

pastu....

uwekkkkkkkk~~~~

esk jumpa doc..

bnyk angin sgt dlm badan...

alang2 tu mntk mc sekali..

dah dkt 2 bln ak keja w/o cuti...

body need a rest...

kkk...

oooo...mmmm

come closer...closer...closer
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mood kerja please come to me..hit me...PLEASEEEE~~~

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TENTANG DIA...gitewww~~~

Sukses send...
resign letter...AGAIN???....

confirm laaa TAK!!!!

ak actually serba salah serba xkena bab2 resign nie...
sebabnya ak SAYANG sgt2 kat bos ak...
nk nynyi lgu shae sat...

"Sayang apa khabar dengan mu
Cobalah kamu telepon diriku
Ku rindu dengar suara indahmu
Kerna dirimulah semangat hidupku"

bg semangat gitewwwww.....hahahhaha..

dah2..back to topic...
pe yg ak ckp kat ats tu adlh rekaan semata-mata..
utk menceriakan suasana mlm yg hening ini...hewhewhew..

actually ak sgt2 respect, adore my boss..
i like da way he taught me, his thinking, his spirit, always come out with gud decision (klu bad decision xyah laa jd manager ye dop?) 
plus klu ak bt slh xprnh marah...yg nie i loikeeee so much...sama2 laaa bt kesilapan...hahahha...TP...bos ak ckp:

'u buat mistake within 1-2thn nie i can undrstnd..becoz u still freshie..in learning process...tp klu u bt slh aftr tht period mmg cnnot b tolerate laa'

kata2 hikmah beliau yg lain:

'u if ad problem hilite kat sya..jgn malu nk ckp ngn sya (uwekkkk...ak xdenya nk malu ngn beliau)..xbgtaw sya xdpt tlg u laa..sometimes create problems are gud things as u can learn from that' - pembawa masalah ke ak nie??hahahaha

'if u do mistake just admit it..nnt org yg tgh suhu 100 Celcius  trus jd ais antrtic...(tpu laa klu manager ckp cmtu..hahah)' - tp klu ad bt mistake ngn dia ak trus bgtaw as soon as possible sblm dia dpt detect..he tends to use logical thinking when seeing my works...lbh kurag cam peribahasa melayu sekilas ikan di air sdh kutah jantan betinanya...so mmg xde chance laaa ak nk ckp putar belit...)

**bnyk lg laaa dia selalu advice kat ak..dlm stu mggu tu ad laa 1-2 hri tutor bersama yang mana pd masa ini akn ad gelak ketawa, keseriusan, nasihat +++++dia selalu gak ckp klu u x spend msa ngn saya time sya ad kat factory..thn u cannot learn anything from me (gud learning ok..)

lg stu bkn bos ak je ak rase semua org pon paling pantang bila repeat same mistake..yg nie ak mmg cuba dan xakn cuba bt...
nk htr email check 2-30 kali giteww (tipu je..xdelaa smpai cecah angka puluh)..

owh btw yg plg ak suka n sgt2 suka adlh klu ak kna marah ngn org yg lbh bnyk experience bos ak tu trus je protect i taw...modal dia '

'dia freshie maaaa..xyah marah2..'***mmg org yg ad tahi lalat kat mulut (mulut manis) camni kot...

dr organize folder, excel name, folder name till laa nk tulis subject email, time bila and sapa yg perlu di cc,to or bcc.. dia ajr ak..nmpk mcm krja ak stndrd tadika ke??hahaha....

xdelaaa...dia nk org2 bwhnya more systematic..organizable..mcm dia or more thn dia...nnt big big boss tgk pon akn teruja..sekaligus hujung tahun dpt bonus bnyk n increment naik kaw2...hahahhaha

another thing...pujian haruslah diberikan sekiranya quality kerja itu tip top..brulah mood nk kerja meluap2...tp manusia tu selalu je show off ngn ak kerja2 n project2 dia bt..n i need to admit he is in another level...with me???hahhahahah

even layanan sgt2 high class tp pg2 ak selalu je bkak jobstreet crik krja baru...ahhahaha..lumrah kehidupan...

preparation in case boss ak tu nk resign..

hri tu ak dpt taw dia nk resign...bila ak ckp ktnya juz kidding..tp bila ak ckp yg factory mngr sndri bgtaw ak trus dia snyp..siap tnya ak pe lg yg org tu ckp...trus je laa ak gelak...hahahhaha

puas hati dpt kenakan..ye laa beria benar ckp x...tp smpai hri nie still nmpk lg dia kat fctory...
biasala gud worker...big boss xkn laa nk accept rsigntion...dah laa xaccept pstu yg syoknya naik lg gaji...

so sape2 nk bg srt resign tu mkesure korg2 ad kepentingan kat compny tu...ad keberanian lg stu..

ok lah...smpai sini saja coretan ak tentang bos ak..

mggu nie dpt gaji...nk p mana ea...hmmmm....

KEPELIKAN

sejak dua menjak nie ak rase pelik sbb:

 (1) xde mood nak keja...yg nie seyesly no 1 coz ak mmg dah kekurangan mood nak keja..awat ea...mmm...xkn sbb ak pnya bos tu selalu g ouutstaion so jrg ak jmpa dia trus mood nk keja 0...bkn sbb bos ak tu hensem tp sbb ak rase dia tu is a gud leader, gud thinker...sesuai sgt2 ngn position dia..

 (2)kesihatan skrg need to b upgraded..kkk...ak kna mkn bnyk vitamin buah2an syr2an..biasanya ak jarang demam evn mandi hujan..tp td lencun kna hujan trus rase virus2 demam membiak...

 (3)selera makan dah kurang..yg ni sng je nk solve..msk je sndri trus mengembang my belly..skunk nie dsbbkn kepenatan ak beli kedai je...tu laaa psl mud nk mkn xde...evn menu lain2...

 (4) ak lngsung dah xtegur or senyum kat membe sekeja yg deprtmnt lain..sbb pe ea??rasanya effect 3 sbb kat ats...hohoho

 (5) AL ak juz tggl seminggu je...dr bln 1 till today ak dah bercuti seminggu...ak cam xcaye je..rase ak keja je 24 hrs...ahhahahha

 rasa cam nk pindah rumh je..dah jumpa rumah..tp xde car park plak...xpe2..nnt ak crik lg..

 oanyeonggg~~~

 regards, Zahira

a very bored weekend

Perlu ke ak pindah rmh for the thrd time... Ak pnya housemqte ni taw laa ak ni menumpang rmh sewa dia... Tp ak byr gak kot..half half lg..derrrr..ak Mentang2 dia msk dulu so rmh ni dah jak yg byr duitd hak milik dia laaa noooo... Bf ko tu xbyr duit sewa ke pe..tp main park je keta dlm rmh Ak yg byr duit ni kna parking keta kat luar.. Ak dok snyp bkn sbb ak ska taw... Xpe xpe mcm laa ak xley crik rmh swa lain... Lapo lapo lapo...dr pg lg ak xmkn.. Nk kuar mls..xlarat nk drve.. Jap lg by hook by crook kna kuar gak crik mknan... Nk sggh kdai bakery sat..nk bli kek.. Dsbbkn klprn..so mcm2 mknan ak dok pk..kkk Dah dua minggu kaki ak ni xgerak g mana2.. Bosan kot... Supposedly mggu ni ak g rmh m.cik ak.. At least blh gak ak mkn sedap2..p jln2.. Sekali adk ak call kta m.cik ak tu blk kg.. Aigoii..lpa plak... School holidays lst week... So terperap kat rmh laaa.... Ak igtkn mggu ni f1..beria laa ak ajk kwn ak g tgk.. Ak peminat tegqr f1 sejak skul lg.. Schumacher kimi raikonnen eddi e pe ntah fav ak.. Chck int tok bli tiket date hri jumaat mggu lps.. So mmg xsempat laa...hohoho.. Xpelaa schumqcher skunk pon da retired..so ak dah xmnt sape2 dlm f1 tu.. Tenis pon ak mnt gak.. I love rafael nadal... Ak mmpu tgk dia main kat tv je... Tp..teringin gak nk tgk dia main live dpn mara...hahahah Tomorrow is monday.. Working day..ooowwwwsoooommmmmmm.... Ak ska p keja...kkk blk keja lps melantak trus tdo... Thn another day comes on.. Time passing vry fst.. It Almost 1 yr i fnshed my study... Ok laaa got to go now~~~ Enjoy ur weekend :-)

welcome back~~~

Rasanya dah lama ak x muncul kat sini..

Ad je point utk tulis..tapi…

MALAS pnya pasal ..

Penyakit malas ak nie mmg sgt2 kronik laa skunk nie..

Bnyk je bnda ak nk bt…tp nk cri “UUUMMM” nk buat

Very very difficult..

Ak  pnya bos dr mggu lps lg dok tnya psl ak pnya KPI..

Dr mggu lps jgk laa ak bg alasan xde idea nk bt…

padahal dr bln lps lg bos ak dah ajar bnda nie…kkk..

‘today I feel like doing anything’…xreti nk nyni...ehehhe

By dis week I need to set my goal to finish up my KPI..hopefully…Insya-Allah…

Owh..btw last two weeks I attended my coursemate wedding..

Dah 3 org kawen..sorg dah ad baby…yg tunang pon ‘many many’

Pastu ak stalk fb kwn2 ak rupa2nya dah ramai yg kawen..

Umo 24 thn dah ad 2 org anak..

Me??not ready yet…muahahahhah…

Alasan kuno~~hewhewhew..

My younger sis on behalf my mom dok sibuk tnya bla nk kawen..

My answer always be “derrr…I’m juz 24 yo…still young to get marry”…

Tp…

Bla ak tgk baby…our future own zuriat..

Ad tercetus ckit perasaan excited nk kawen…

Then automatically my eyes will focus on work..or watching videos..

Hilang keterujaan nk kawen after dat…hahahhahah..

aishhh....Lmbtnya gaji nk msk…

List utk ak poya2 next month da kuar…juz tggu incoming money je…hahahhaha

Klu tme student dulu selalu je ckp“lmbtnya JPA nk msk”…once dah dpt JPA first tmpt ak p JJ Tmn U..

Tme tu JJ mcm taw2 je bla kitaorg dpt duit…

Sbb… tme kitaorg dpt duit tme tu laaa J-Card Day…

4 thn ak kat sna xprnh pon ak bt J-card…pnjm ngn membe2 sudah…jimat RM 12..ye kot…

Ak xprnh ambik taw kena byr berapa setahun for J-Card..

Dsbbkn xbwk j-card ak prnh pnjm ngn org yg kat depan ak tme nk byr kat kaunter…hehehhe

Bt muka xmalu laa kn…kkkk…dia dpt point kita dpt discount…

Win-win situation…

Ok laaa…

Sampai sini saja coretan saya utk hri nie..

Sehingga berjumpa di lain hari…

Anyeongggg~~~~

transformation of me

assalamualaikum....
da lama rasanya ak xmenulis kat sini...
bz ke??muahahhahahah
ckit2 laaa....
actually da dekat 2 bulan ak keja..
n da dkt 3 bln ak hbs blja...
planningnya lps hbs blja ak nk menulis entry psl hbs blja..
tp tgn xde mud nak menaik..kkk
n da dkt 2 bln gak laaa ak da beli keta...hehehhe
keta pe??saga flx je yg ak mmpu...
beginner...hehheheh
lgpon tu mmg one of my listed BF..muahahhaha
next trget rexton ke harrier ke...
tp tu kna tggu ak dpt gaji berpuluh2 ribu laaa...
as for now keta besa2 je laa...kkk
tu pon my parents bermurah hati byr duit muka...
1st month loan pon ayh ak byr lg...
tp ayh ak da psn next month sndri byr ye....hahhahaha
next month also my convocation day..
im anticipating that day :)
evn ak xdelaa excellent mana tp
im so grateful i can finish my study on time :)

oklaaa...as for now nothing to say...
nk p jln2 ngn membe2...

ooo smlm ak rsa mnysl sgt2 berperangai krg sopan..
org tnya bnda supposedly ak kna jwb ngn elok...
aigooo...
sian plak bla ak pk blk kat manusia tu...
hopefully i will not do the same mistake...


anyeooong~~~~

past memory

this is the true story...

happened long time ago...

it began when i got offered to further my study at boarding school..SBPI Pekan..

even it is new school and not prestigious school like STF,SESERI n etc...

but i was excited...thanks god...

at that time i still remembered...

ak sgt2 teruja dpt g sbp...

ye laa biasanya ak mampu tgk je cousin2 n abg ak dpt offr mrsm sbp...

my mom spent thousand ringgit for my preparation..

siap bayar yuran smpai half semester lg....

disangkakan panas smpai ke ptg..rupanya hujan di tengahari...

tu laaa idiom yg sesuai utk ak...

ak mampu b'tahan 2 mggu je kat sbp..

then called my parents...

told them...

to take me home...

my mom paksa ak suruh duduk kat sana smpai half sem..

ye laa da habis beribu2 rggt....

but i called my father...

for this kind of situation....it easy to pujuk2 my dad compare to my mom...

then...my dad said "YES"...

n asked my aunt who stayed closed to my school uruskan proses ak balik ke daily school

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everything occured in a split second...cececece...

actually the real reason i left that school...

i never told everyone...even my parents...

when they asked me...

i said i cannot adapt myself with the new environment....food...study...

it definitely true actually...dat the second reason...

but the major was...

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ak MERAJUK ngn kawan ak...

my new friends there...who r very close to me since the first day we met...

me...mahirah...n mahirah's friend nabilah...

we were kelantanese..always eat together...study together..

kat kelas kami duduk sekali...

konklusinya...kami begitu kamching...

until one day....

i could not remember wut really happened...

but wut i felt at that moment was..

LONELY..

i felt left behind....we were no longer talked  to each other...

laughed???no more laughed...

masing2 very selfish...ego...xnak bertegur sapa n mengaku kesalahan diri...

very CHILDISH...especially myself...

ak yg started bt hal...so supposedly ak yg patut mintak maaf..

but at that time...ak xmatured...

seriously..ak rasa keseorangan...

yeah...i had another friends..

i juz quarelled with them...not others....

so y should i worried rite??

dat true.....

tp kita akn berasa lain...rasa cam perlu keluar cepat2 dr this kind of situation...

rasa beban sgt2 kat kepala nie....bajet gitewww...

padahal mslh kecik je...

so...ak ambik jalan mudah...

call my father and asked him to take me home...

mudah gitewww kan...

i left all my problems there..

until i wanted to move..

i still arrogant...ego...

xckp xmntk maaf ngn org yg ak buat silap..

i knew dat was my mistakes..

but like i said before...

ego yang tinggi bt ak fikir

"asal ak yg kena mntk maaf bukan dia....dia yg buat slh'

lbey krg camtulaaa...

it took until SPM result for us to talk..

she called me and asked whether i still knew her or not...

of coz i knew....

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sbbkn perangai ak yg buruk tu...

ak rase menyesal sgt2 tgglkn skul tu...

ak nyesal sbb 

a)ad bdk kls sblh ak nie... 1st time org pggl ak ***....biasanya family ak je pggl camtu...xsempat den nak siasat name dia...muka pon da xberapa igt...yg ak igt ak prnh kate 'bdk ni not bad"...muahahhahahahhahahah

actually ak nyesal sbb ak xsempat nak b'gambar..nak b'enjoy...ngn membe2 ak kat sana...especially ngn mahirah ngn nabilah...no memory with them...

sape suruh ko merajuk sgt...

merajuk juz menyusahkan diri je bg ak...

we lost EVERYTHING...

tipulaaa ak kata ak xterasa ngn membe2 ak spnjg 4thun ak kat utm nie...

ad tu ad...tp...

i don't want pisang berbuah  dua kali....

i know the effct...

so bila da merajuk...pandai2 laaa pujukkan diri sendiri...

we r old enough...

x cool r merajuk2 nie....

hewhewhewhew~~~

huhuuhuhuh

sob sob sob~~~~
n.ak balik.............
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too many things occur
now u know da feeling being left alone...
dat wut i felt...
not once but many many many times..countless indeed...
it really really hurt when people around me keep asking
"knpa xikot diorg g ........?"
how can i answer dat if i never know
but...
i let it bury in my heart...
too many things i kept it...
dat i felt one day it will b exploded...
hopefully not before 21 june 2012...
when dat happen..
wut i need is my family...
so..
i can forget it
n continous live in happiness..
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some times when it happened..
i want do da same like others..
shout it in social media..(like wut i did now...)
i mean others than this..
tell the world ur feeling
easy rite
n people will blame others...
it bad to read such negative comments that u know directly point to ur face!!!!
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nevertheless...
i kept thinking the negative impact
and is it appropriate ways???
if it can ease urselves..
than dat gud......
i never try it...so i cannot tell it....
well...i will find someone..my friend...
who i can tell my problems...
spend a days with her so i can keep smile in my face...
for my own sake...
i'm not telling them my dissatisfaction...
cause i know they will ignore it
how do u know??
u never try it..
mmmmmm...
lgpon x tough laaa kan jiwa lembut
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when i flashback..
i think i'm such a petty person...
i smile all the times..
but that don't mean i'm happy..
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luckily only 25 days left
when i said i will not contact anyone after this...
i guess i really mean it...
let count the days now~~~

my past memories

tgk kat fb...
oooo besday budak tu ke hri nie....
lpa plak...dulu ak igt gak...
igt sbb pe???
sshhhhhhhhh....~~~
hehehhe
t'igt plak zmn ak dok matrix...best sgt sgt sgt~~~~~
klu mtrx tu 4 thn ak rela je~~~
kikikiki...
xtaw laaa y i like it so much
too many memories there...
that will be remain secret...
bajet secret laaa kan.....padahal xde benda pon..
saje nak menghiperbolakan ckit....
ad lg semiggu for euro 2012..
sama2 laa kita menyokong belanda spain german eng~~~
excited ak nk sokong...
klu kat rumah confem laaa ak tgk live...
via tv je laaaa...
nk g europe xmampu....
but i will...when i am no longer "STUDENT"....hehehhe

 B.5.3.7..rela kitaorg pakai lawa2 juz for photoshoot :)

 dinner for kmpp students kat luar kmpp...lpa plak nama tmpt tu

 F4P1....mmmm

 ak tgk ad sorg bdk tu je trus nk lempang2 bg sedar ckit..sbb pe???mmmmmm

with da bez cikgu kimia...kat mtrx dulu ak suka bljar organic....sbb ckgu zaidi nie laaa....baik sgt2...explain bg kitaorg faham n igt....kat utm nie lain ckit...mayb sbb ak yg kekurangan feel study kot...hohoohoh...actually beliau before jd ckgu mtrx mrpkn seorng engineer kat offshore...super senior ak...ak igt lg beliau resign sebab he said "if something happen kat pelantar tu, he will be last one to be saved"..

nie laaa membe2 ak yg rapat while i was here...but already lost contact with huda....i don't know y...i tend to ignore people even they r my friends when i move to another place....kejam kan ak??

my rumate yg sgt2 baik hati...satu kepala ngn ak tme kat mtrx...k.ila sgt2 baik...memang xley nk compare ngn ak laa kn...i left very far behind....prnh sx ak ngamuk..sebab pe??sebab ak rase awat laa k.ila nie baik sgt....hahahha...biasanya klu ak marah kat org tu, like i said previously, ak mmg ignore je laaa...hbs semua org ak ignore...konklusinya mmg org dpt detect laaa....pastu k.ila text me n said sorry...trok kan ak..

 ak sorg je lain...hehehe...ak sorg je bdk physic kat sini..heheh...

 dat da first n last i went to stadium...rajin plak kn ptg2 ak g b'sukan

i love KMPP so much

design xsiap lg~~~

cepat2 zahira~~~

family is my PRIORITY

aishhhhh...
da lama ak xbalik rumah....
da dekat dua bulan kot...catat sejarah dpt b'thn dgn life kat utm nie....hohoho
rindu bangat kat budak bwh nie...
da lama ak xkiss dia..hahahhahah
ak suka sgt2 cium budak nie before bangun tdo...
bau air liur basi tu yg best...hahahhahahahhahah

aigoooo...
makin dekat due date submission design pnya project makin bnyk songehnya...
cam ak xdpt nak balik je..hohoho
pg nie bru berkesempatan nak b'jimba2 aftr 3 days spent my entire days with design...
tdo kul 6am bngun kul 9 am...da jd batwoman nmpk gayanya...
tp 3 hri tu je laaa...
nk buat camne last minute pnya keja...hahahhaha
xley nk slhkn org lain slhkn diri sendiri noooo....
level pressure mereka2 yg bt design nie ak assume da smpai mount everest peak...
prlu implement all types of controller nmpknya...

well tempiasnya ak da kena kn...
klu x xdenya ak ckp...
nak marah2 tu b'pada-pada laaa derrrr...
ak msg elok2 tnya....
lain laa klu ak msg kurang ajar bhsanya....
blom smpt ak nk bgtaw tujuan asal ak msg ang da marah2...
ak bknnya nk ko yg buat juz nk tnya details je...
xtaw laa kot2 biasa2 je ayt ang tu..no other meaning...
tp bg ak...there was sumthing wrong...
deep inside my heart (ececcecec)...SPEECHLESS!!!!!

so bear in mind ye NON ZAHIRA..
next time straight forward je klu nk tnya...xyah dok buat ucapan alu-aluan...
peringatan pd diri sendiri...
PATIENCE is very important in dealing with this matter...
be cool je if ad org marah2 jgn cepat kecik hati..
or NEVER MAD to others with no reason....


so actually till now i still kept this dissapointment (btol x ak eja...malas nk bukak oxford) feeling..
once ak da jd camni..take time to heal..

ak xtaw camne laaa my reaction bila ak da jumpa nanti...
please do not blame me if i will ignore when u speak, ask, text, etc to me....

i always thinking what if i do the same for others??
perasaan nk buat bnda2 yg org prnh buat dekat ak semakin berkobar-kobar...
if they can do why not me
i want they feel the same ways like me...

HOWEVER...
why i keep thinking about others rather than myself?????

COOL DOWN myself by staring this ice-cream..

kids.....i'm gonna come back home soon~~~~~

18 May 2012

Date: 21 Jun 2011

Time: Any time

important mission at dat day...

muahahhahahahhahahhahahah (evil laugh)

dari Dia kita dtg kepada Dia kita kembali

aishhhh...
penat penat penat...
i juz came back from 'berpoya-poya'..
actually ak semamngnya malas nak balik...
tp bila pk je design part ak yg sgt sgt bnyk xsiap lg..
t'pksa mengagahkn diri balik gak..
i'm so tough indeed...
hahahhaha
btw during my vacation i got bad news...
my childhood friend aka my best friend had lost his father..
my mother called me to inform the news..
well actually our house is quite close (before i moved to another kampung)...
becoz we were close friend..
so my mom knew her family..
when i 'berjalan-jalan' around pasir mas..i always met her late father..
n we always had little conversation when we met...
so when i heard the news...i was also sad...
bila ak fikir psl kematian...
seram sejuk rasanya....
i'm still 23...
but dat doesn't mean anything...
death can occur anytime..anywhere...
and only GOD know...
rasa cam ak bnyk buat salah je spnjg 23 thun ak bernafas..
amal ibadah cam kurang mencukupi je...
hopefully i'm strong enough to face
ujian dari Allah
sebab hanya Allah saje yg taw wut is the best for us...
i love my family so much~~~

9 May 2012

SELAMAT HARI JADI ZAHIRA~~~

i'm already 23...

OMG...one year had been passed...

n know i'm getting older year by year...

can i stop the time??...

like HAHA did in running man....TIME CONTROLLER~~~kkk

as i'm already 23...

i think i need to think about my future now..

i will grad soon..Insya Allah...

hopefully i can get the job as soon as i finish my study..

it only left two month...

it is my dream to go to Mecca..

and i wish i can fullfill it this year..Insya Allah..

n i guess i can start find another part of me...

da one that will protect me..

da one that i will never tired seeing...

da one dat will accept my good and bad side of me..

da one dat will be my sheltered...

da one dat always ready to lend his hand to me..

da one dat.........more n more...

but...

i really hope..i can find someone dat can guide me..

to be GOOD MUSLIMAH

ok...dat all for today...

cam matured sgt je...

bubye~~~

subhanallah..thanks God for make me a woman~~

nie ak copy n paste dr fb yg mana membe ak post...

rite now i know da reason why each time ak nk marah sgt2 tba2 je ad air meleleh keluar dr mata..hahahhaha

actually it occurs only once in 4 years i'm in utm...

whose dat person?better i zip my lips laaa kan...

tme ak kat matrix..kat skul primary n secondary...

cam xde je...becoz i absolutely enjoy my life there..

but in UTM..also fun...

with a lot of friend surround me...i'm really grateful..

especially when i'm with my close buddies in utm...siti nur azah abd jalil n nur amiza mat tajuddin...heheheh

when i recall back how we met...

i will start laughing...especially da story i met with amimin@amiza....kkk

for four years we growth together...

perhhh...ayat xley bla laa kn...

ok..dat enough for now..

enjoy ur reading~~~

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Malaikat menghadap Allah dan bertanya : "Ya Allah, mengapa memerlukan waktu untuk menciptakan wanita ini..?"

Allah menjawab :

"Apakah kamu memperhatikan seluruh keistimewaan dan seluruh sifat yang ada pada ciptaan-Ku ini? Ciptaan ini harus memiliki lebih dari 200 organ yang selalu bergerak agar bisa menjalankan semua tugasnya. Ciptaan ini kelak harus mampu melayani suaminya, menjaga harta keluarga dan menjadi ratu di rumah tinggalnya. Ciptaan ini kelak harus mampu membuat enak segala macam makanan yang dihidangkan. Dia harus kuat mengandung anak dan sanggup melahirkan berkali-kali. Dia harus memberikan cinta yang bisa menyembuhkan rasa sakit. Dia harus bisa melakukan segala sesuatu hanya dengan 2 tangannya."

Malaikat terkejut dan berkata : "Hanya dengan 2 tangan… 2 tangan! ini adalah hal yang mustahil..."

Allah terus melanjutkan ciptaan-Nya. lalu kepada malaikat, Allah berfirman :

"Tunggulah sampai besok aku akan menyelesaikan semuanya. tunggulah sebentar! Ciptaan ini akan segera selesai. Dia ini akan selalu dekat dengan Aku. Dia bisa menyembuhkan dirinya saat jatuh sakit. Dia bisa bekerja sepanjang hari dan malam.."

Malaikat mendekati wanita yang sudah tercipta dan memegangnya, lalu bertanya kepada Allah : "Ya Allah, Engkau jadikan wanita ini sangat lembut!"

Allah menjawab :

"Ya, sesungguhnya dia sangat lembut, tetapi Aku jadikan dia sangat kuat. Kamu tidak bisa menggambarkan sampai dimana kekuatannya, dia mampu menanggung beban dan menahan diri untuk bersabar."

Malaikat bertanya: "Apakah dia bisa berpikir?"

Allah menjawab :

"Tidak hanya berpikir, dia pandai mengambil hati dan pandai berbicara, dia bisa berdialog dan juga bisa berdebat."

Malaikat memegang pipi wanita itu dan merasa asing, kemudian bertanya kepada Allah :"Ya Allah mengapa pipinya ranum dan berkilau..?"

Allah menjawab :

"Pipi itu bukan semata ranum dan berkilau. Di situ tersimpan air mata dan di situ terletak banyak beban berat."

Malaikat bertanya : "Kenapa mengalirkan air mata?

Allah menjawab :

"Air mata adalah satu-satunya cara melepaskan beban. Mengalirnya air mata adalah cara untuk mengungkapkan kesedihan, ketidaksenangan, pengaduan, kekecewaan, cinta, kebencian, kerinduan, kesendirian, kebahagian dan segala macam rasa yang ada dalam dirinya..

Good Girl Bad Girl

klu da ak xsuka org tu sampai bila-bila ak xsuka..
tgk je rasa annoying..
even bt baik ke ak still rase #$%^
membe ak prnh ckp..
bley nmpk r klu ak xsuka seseorang..
ok..i admit it..
memang ak xdpt nk control or pretend suka bila ak da xsuka...
tp...
ak rasa ak nie bkn jns yg cepat dislike or like people around me...
dat y once i start to dislike them..
it will take a long time before i can change my perception towards them
i feel bad to both...especially myself...
camne laaa nak ubah bad habit ak nie..
Ya Allah...help me...

hOliDaY aT tIoMaN IsLaNd

pics speak better than words..lol

Power Girl

last friday...

because of tiredness i overslept..

bangun pagi je..cam biasa menuju ke lappy..

check mail..baca newspapers..check notifications fb..tweet tweet...

tba-tba t'igt assignment food..

dsebabkan kemalasan..g survey bilik member yg lain..

diorg pon xsiap gak..hehehe

so trus xde mood nk buat..hahahha

then t'igt selasa mggu nie cuti...

tp hri rabu ad test..

ok..not enough time to balik kampung...

so another alternative..

g jalan-jalan rumah my aunt kat kl..

xtaw sebab pe kaki ak nk sgt g jln-jln...

maybe nak hilang rasa penat bt PD kot..

xpon nk g survey laki-laki hensem kat sana...

muahahahhahah...

i texted my cousin..

but she n her family still in penang...

so i decided to go to upm first..

to meet my buddies there..

it had been long time since we last met..

then i packed my stuffs..called a cab n told the driver to take me at 1.00 pm...

punya laa ak rushing siap-siap..

sekali org yg g solat jumaat already came back..

ak pula dgn setia n penuh kesabaran menunggu di luar blok..

while waiting..i saw some of utm student org da hbs baca khutbah n da habis rakaat pertama baru terhegeh-hegeh nak g masjid..

i hope one day they can change and be better Muslim..insya-Allah...

lastly i call taxi centre..n within 10 minutes a taxi already waited for me outside my block..

i kept blamed myself  for my mistakes called another taxi company..hohoho

at sri puteri..i met my friend who was ex-kmpp as well as budak aras ak kat matric dulu..

she asked me where i wanted to go..

then i said kl..

so she said "ooo..ko nak g join BERSIH laa nie"

i asked her abruptly "BERSIH?ko jgn kate dis weekend"

oittt zahira next time baca papers everyday...

baca kat bhgian nasional..xyah dok fokus kat hiburan n gosip je...

another mistake i made...

suddenly kiki messaged me "ko x g kls food ke?"

opppsss..i already in the bus....hahahhahaha

to go to serdang..i need to take ktm commuter from TBS..

dem...awat laa bus ak nie smpai time org balik keja..

weyh zahira..ang laa salah..yg ang g gatal beli tiket kul 3.00pm buat pe..

next time beli tiket pagi laaa nooo.....

almost one hour i waited for commuter..

ak nie kira lucky lg laa tggu sejam je...yg awl lg dr ak pon still dok menunggu...

diorg punya laa dok bebel..

i knew their feeling...well da laa penat keja..pastu penat menunggu train lg..

klu ak memang da lama ak g buat aduan kat ktm..

ak rasa da bnyk kali kot i faced dis same prob..

but i still grateful laaa...

ktm..monorel..star...bnyk berjasa pd ak...

main transportation bila ak g kl..kkk

so ak da smpai agak lewat kat serdang lbey kurang 8.30 pm..

ak ajk syera g mines...tp she said it already late...hohoho

2x ak dok bermalam bilik dia 2x gak dia xmau g..

xpe xpe next time ak g sendiri....hohoho

for breakfast i juz took a glass of bottle and a bottle of PEPSI..

so perut ak memang da kempis sangat..

singgah cafe n beli nasi kukus as well as juice orange..

thanx to syera for dat...

next time ak datang lg nooooo....hehehhehe

bngun pagi-pagi..siap siap nk g rumah my aunt...

perhhh....train dr tbs ke kl sentral full kot...

memang annoying laa kan...

da macam pe dlm train tu...

ak malas nak komen pasal mereka-mereka nie..

ak juz xpuas hati dgn keadaan ak je...

da laaa bwk brg bnyk..berat plak tu...t'pksa laa ak pikul..

nk letak kan takut nanti brg ak jd mangsa...

penat weyhhhhhhhhh....dgn x mkn n minum...xde energy derrrrrrrr...

ak plak cam jakun je...

sistem token yg dguna pakai punya pasal laa nie..

klu dlu ak beli je tiket kat kauter..skunk mana bley...

kna guna machine...nmpk sgt laaa ak nie bgai rusa msk kg (btol x peribahasa ak nie?)

lps je Masjid Jamek..trus keadaan dlm train tenang je...

smpai je rumah mak cik ak....ltak je beg trus ak g PWTC..

well i planned nk jumpa my bestie Pana here...

mak cik ak kate kat sini ad Pesta Buku paling besar kat Malaysia...

memang bear laa kan....ak juz g tngkt bwh je...

to b honest ak nie bkn ulat buku pon..hohoho

kat sini ak jumpa laa penulis novel Ain Maisarah kot...

pastu ad bnyk lg laa...dsbbkn ak nie bkn kaki novel..

so ak ignore je laaa kn..

while waited for my friend..

i saw someone...owh he was Jamal Abdillah...

btol-btol in front of me...xde org pon yg perasan except for me..

i stared at him many times..n he looked at me many times..

maybe disebabkan ak tgk dia dgn pelik tu yg dia dok tgk ak tu..

langsung ak x senyum pon...pastu dia n bodyguard trus blah cam tu je

zahira..senyum tu sedekah....

at last i met my old buddy..n her friend

we already be friend since first year...n we seldom met each other..

she already worked at Putrajaya..

so as a good friend i think it is good for me to "paw" my own friend...hehehehhe

sian plak kat dia nanti..duit tebal so berat beg...hahahhah

disebabkan da kebuluran...she treated me Aunty Anne..

sgt sgt laa sedap...disebabkan kat kelantan n jb xde..

so dis is da first time ak makan benda nie...

ak rase cam nk jilat-jilat je lebihan choc..

tp dsbbkn ad rase malu..so xmungkin laaa ak buat cam tu...

then we went to sungai wang..looking for teeeeetttttttttt...hehheheh

after that i followed them to their house....

wow daebak...seriously i like the environment of their house...

very tranquil..clean...no pollution..security also quite good

tempat org main golf...swimming pool...also available at this resident area...

ak yg first time dtg pon rasa puas hati je dgn suasana n facilities yg ad..

their house actually close to stadium bukit jalil..about 10 minutes i guess...

kitaorg balik coz nak ambik keta je..

nk g midvalley...becoz she promised me to treat me if i go to kl..

so as i already in kl...i quickly told her and without no mercy i remind her about the promise she made to me...

such a cruel friend i think..hehehhe

but she will always b my friend..

a friend that i will never forget...

a good friend to me..

oppsss...t'lbey suda...klu Pana tu bace kembang kempis hidung dia...

hahahhahahah

at dubu dubu seoul food midvalley

she said i could order everything i wanted..

i hit the jackpot i bet...lol

 bashata

new friend..i hope we can meet again next time :)

it already nite...

so we decided to go home...

next morning.....

here i am..oh yeah~~~

me n my cousins departed from house around 5.30am and arrived at Semenyih at 6.30 am..

hiking is one of my list to be done..

and broga was selected because of many reasons..

one of them is i do not need undergo any training..hahahhaha

so turun je dr keta..dgn b'semangat waja ak trus jalan cepat-cepat nak panjat bukit..

bajet nk tgk sunrise laa kan..

dgn bangganya we crossed people ahead us..

well we r young among them.. so stamina pon ok...hahahhahah

then...i started breath using my mouth...

already pancit...dem..

tu laa org besanya warming up dulu before hiking..

yg ak trus je g panjat..

terkejut beruk laaa kan muscle ak nie...hahahha

da laa xpernah bersukan...tup-tup g hiking...

however...

even ak pancit...ak still mengagahkan diri panjat bukit..

malu wooooo...

budak-budak kecik yg primary skul pon mampu smpai puncak..

xkan ak nk stop halfway plak..

i set in my mind that i could do it..

yeah zahira...u could...

dis is wut u want so u must face any obstacles n hardship..

at last...

 nmpk cam semut je..geram ak tgk

panjat..panjat...

subhanallah

was covered by "nur"

pe motif cousin pd cousin ak pakai jeans n sliper still mistery

opppsss...xsempat nk break laa plak...

i like dis view so much

me with da view i like

ak da smpai puncak korg kat blkg bila lg..hahahhaha

disebabkan ak yg paling tua dalam kalangan cousin ak yg join hiking nie..

so ak yg plg cepat letih..stamina kurang..hahahah

well older people cannot b compare with younger...

hehehehhe

so diorg dok laaaa srh ak panjat cepat-cepat..

da laa ak xbawak backpack..

air n makanan ak ltk kat dlm beg cousin ak yg laki..hahahahhaha

padan muka...bajet cool sgt....kkk

well broga nie pe laa sgt for kaki-kaki hiking..

for me...as beginner..

i am very proud with myself as i can fullfill one of my dream..

even it is broga...heheheh..

so this perhap will be first and last :)

alang-alang penat tu...

jom memenatkan lagi with shopping..makan-makan..jalan-jalan