Sunday, June 17, 2012

past memory

this is the true story...
happened long time ago...
it began when i got offered to further my study at boarding school..SBPI Pekan..
even it is new school and not prestigious school like STF,SESERI n etc...
but i was excited...thanks god...
at that time i still remembered...
ak sgt2 teruja dpt g sbp...
ye laa biasanya ak mampu tgk je cousin2 n abg ak dpt offr mrsm sbp...
my mom spent thousand ringgit for my preparation..
siap bayar yuran smpai half semester lg....
disangkakan panas smpai ke ptg..rupanya hujan di tengahari...
tu laaa idiom yg sesuai utk ak...
ak mampu b'tahan 2 mggu je kat sbp..
then called my parents...
told them...
to take me home...
my mom paksa ak suruh duduk kat sana smpai half sem..
ye laa da habis beribu2 rggt....
but i called my father...
for this kind of situation....it easy to pujuk2 my dad compare to my mom...
then...my dad said "YES"...
n asked my aunt who stayed closed to my school uruskan proses ak balik ke daily school
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everything occured in a split second...cececece...
actually the real reason i left that school...
i never told everyone...even my parents...
when they asked me...
i said i cannot adapt myself with the new environment....food...study...
it definitely true actually...dat the second reason...
but the major was...
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ak MERAJUK ngn kawan ak...
my new friends there...who r very close to me since the first day we met...
me...mahirah...n mahirah's friend nabilah...
we were kelantanese..always eat together...study together..
kat kelas kami duduk sekali...
konklusinya...kami begitu kamching...
until one day....
i could not remember wut really happened...
but wut i felt at that moment was..
LONELY..
i felt left behind....we were no longer talked  to each other...
laughed???no more laughed...
masing2 very selfish...ego...xnak bertegur sapa n mengaku kesalahan diri...
very CHILDISH...especially myself...
ak yg started bt hal...so supposedly ak yg patut mintak maaf..
but at that time...ak xmatured...
seriously..ak rasa keseorangan...
yeah...i had another friends..
i juz quarelled with them...not others....
so y should i worried rite??
dat true.....
tp kita akn berasa lain...rasa cam perlu keluar cepat2 dr this kind of situation...
rasa beban sgt2 kat kepala nie....bajet gitewww...
padahal mslh kecik je...
so...ak ambik jalan mudah...
call my father and asked him to take me home...
mudah gitewww kan...
i left all my problems there..
until i wanted to move..
i still arrogant...ego...
xckp xmntk maaf ngn org yg ak buat silap..
i knew dat was my mistakes..
but like i said before...
ego yang tinggi bt ak fikir
"asal ak yg kena mntk maaf bukan dia....dia yg buat slh'
lbey krg camtulaaa...
it took until SPM result for us to talk..
she called me and asked whether i still knew her or not...
of coz i knew....
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sbbkn perangai ak yg buruk tu...
ak rase menyesal sgt2 tgglkn skul tu...
ak nyesal sbb 

a)ad bdk kls sblh ak nie... 1st time org pggl ak ***....biasanya family ak je pggl camtu...xsempat den nak siasat name dia...muka pon da xberapa igt...yg ak igt ak prnh kate 'bdk ni not bad"...muahahhahahahhahahah

actually ak nyesal sbb ak xsempat nak b'gambar..nak b'enjoy...ngn membe2 ak kat sana...especially ngn mahirah ngn nabilah...no memory with them...
sape suruh ko merajuk sgt...
merajuk juz menyusahkan diri je bg ak...
we lost EVERYTHING...
tipulaaa ak kata ak xterasa ngn membe2 ak spnjg 4thun ak kat utm nie...
ad tu ad...tp...
i don't want pisang berbuah  dua kali....
i know the effct...
so bila da merajuk...pandai2 laaa pujukkan diri sendiri...
we r old enough...
x cool r merajuk2 nie....
hewhewhewhew~~~

3 comments:

  1. waaaaaaaa....bestnye cite awk nie..ley buat cite tauladan giteewww...niceeee....ull mark..haha

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  2. cite btol giteww...bukan rekaan semata mata gitewww..hewhewhew

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  3. SESERI yang penting tersenarai okay. haha.
    aku pon tak penah lupa dan tak akan lupa perpindahan aku dr seseri ke sis balik. kadang2 rasa menyesal tu ada, memang ada. tapi aku takde la sbb gadoh ngn org nak pindah kan. mmg tak leh nak adapt betul suasana kat situ, lagi2 tak pernah tinggal rumah kan. rasa sangat lain. nah ambek, aku pegi sis, bukan cemerlang pon merosot sampai sekrg. hahaha.tengok member2 aku yg duk seseri semua dh berjaya, semua bijak2 tahu, jelez tu ya amat sangat la... :(

    tapi, pk balik, ini lah ketentuan yg Allah dh atur untuk kita. pasti ada hikmah di sebalik nya. kan mok joh kan. huhu. insya Allah....

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